20 September 2016

07.10.16

One year ago, the worst thing that could ever happen to a parent, happened to me. On September 20th 2015 at 9.26am my daughter took her last breath and her heart stopped beating, my heart broke but it carried on beating.

Unless you have lost a child no-one can ever understand the deep soul searing pain that envelops you, your child that you brought into this world has gone, not in this lifetime will you ever again hear their laughter, comfort them and smother them in kisses, wave them off to school, college, watch them fall in love, get married and have their own children. The loss of your child is also the loss of your past, your present and your future.

Since losing Milly, I have learnt the real true value of family and friends, I have seen friends become family, friends who I least expected have been there for me through some very dark heart wrenching times. People surprise you during times when you almost..almost don’t think your going to make it through to the next hour, because the pain is so all consuming and you cannot imagine how life can continue without your child.

Losing a child changes you forever, changes your life forever. I am slowly learning to live a different life.

I don’t post personal feelings often on this page but today is different …the charity to me is personal. Its about Milly. It’s entire ethos is about love, my love for Milly and Milly’s love for life. Milly is the reason the charity is here, and that makes it very personal. The charity, whilst helping families who have been given the devastating news that their child has cancer, also allows me to honour Milly’s life. I can tell her story, speak about how amazing she was and how much love she brought into people’s lives, especially mine. It is truly a privilege to be Milly’s mum, and if given the chance and knowing the painful outcome I would do it all again in a heartbeat.

So today it’s personal…it’s about my daughter Milly ❤️❤️❤️👼❤️❤️❤️