Happy Heavenly Birthday my beautiful Milly…(6th November)
..I miss you more and more each and every day..I miss waking up and seeing you dressed, ready for school…I miss your giggle..I miss you in the car singing along to the radio pretending you know the words..I miss brushing and plaiting your hair..I miss sitting at the table eating tea and finding you have pinched my slippers..I miss you trying to put your hands round my neck because you know I don’t like it..I miss seeing you skip out of school..I miss your hugs..I miss your kisses…I miss watching your swimming lessons..I miss washing and ironing your clothes..I miss seeing your face at your bedroom window waiting for me to get home from work..I miss tucking you up in bed..I miss you asking me to say a good dream spell to stop you having nightmares..I miss your laugh..I miss your beautiful face..I miss life with you..i miss the life we were meant to have..
The “what-ifs” are so strong everyday. I wonder what your interests would be. I wonder if you would have any new passions. I wonder what we would be doing for your 21st birthday, would you be having a party… or spending it with your friends…. I wonder how much more beautiful you would be, if that would even be possible.
We have missed out on a lifetime of memories, missed out on watching you grow up, leave school, make decisions about your future, and it’s so hard not to feel cheated with only having had a very brief 11 years with you.
You are missed every second Milly and loved endlessly….
Have a lovely birthday in heaven with the angels and always know that..
“I will carry you,
Here and there,
There and here,
Until I am where you are.”
